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Philosophy of a loser – Glee style

So, recently, I’ve started over the whole series of GLEE, and I’m enjoying it sooooo much!! Even better than the first time. I feel it. And I love it! It’s just awesome! 

This song sums up the whole series, I think, and my whole life.

Pay attention to the lyrics, and please, please, think about it! If you’re on the side of the one singing it, know that you’re not alone, and we are kings and queens of the world as much as any other people. And if you think I’m ridiculous and I’m a loser, well, Baby I don’t care 😉

– PaperGirl

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y39IBVhknmE So, recently, I've started over the whole series of GLEE, and I'm enjoying it sooooo much!! Even better than the first time. I feel it. And I love it! It's just awesome!  This song sums up the whole series, I think, and my whole life. Pay attention to the lyrics, and please, please, think… Continue reading Philosophy of a loser – Glee style

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Pure dynamic

Have you ever met someone so awesome that you are just happy to simply know this person?  Even more when you share real things with this person. 

And you want to be more like this person, and you take all this person give you (as selfish as it can sound), and you want to give it all to this person too. Just because this person deserves it. And life just seems more easy. 

It is like finding a part of yourself you didn’t even know excited. But it is you. And you feel kind of more complete. And you know that because you feel kind of empty when you’re not with this person. 

I’m not talking about love at first sight or anything romantic. Because every person who has this effect on me are nothing like that. But they are my best friends. And it is so strong. It just feels right. Like you can be yourself a 100%, and you feel no shame because you are accepted and you accept this person too.

Just loving another human being…for his awesomeness… 

Some people are just beautiful. And I’m talking about their souls, not only their pretty faces.

I’m really lucky to know some people like that. They are parts of me, and I’m not full without them around. 

Try it sometimes.

It can set you free. 

– PaperGirl

Have you ever met someone so awesome that you are just happy to simply know this person?  Even more when you share real things with this person.  And you want to be more like this person, and you take all this person give you (as selfish as it can sound), and you want to give… Continue reading Pure dynamic

Life · Thoughts

Feeling lost in the big world and the big plans

These days I wanna do a LOT of things.Like big things, travels, take a time off the world I know everyday and be crazy, and I want it so hard that it hurts when I realize it’s not possible right now.

You know…when you want to dream big but you can’t. Or that feeling that you’re not doing everything you can to enjoy life as hard as you could, and you missing it, and, again, you can’t do anything about it? This is kind of exactly that. These are the feelings I have these past few days. Like everything I wanna do I can’t, and that I’m missing it. I’m missing all of it. And as if every little decision I take make me doubt. About my life in general. About the future, and missing it. 

I need to calm down. I’m sure I’m overreacting, again. 

I also think that I may be trying to become someone I’m not. But I want to be this person, this new me. It’s hard and I feel torn apart. And I can’t manage to just let me fly with the wind. With life. I wanna overcome and control everything. I should not. 

I guess I kind of just feel lost. And I think I should just let go and be. Simply be. 

– PaperGirl 

These days I wanna do a LOT of things.Like big things, travels, take a time off the world I know everyday and be crazy, and I want it so hard that it hurts when I realize it's not possible right now. You know...when you want to dream big but you can't. Or that feeling that you're… Continue reading Feeling lost in the big world and the big plans

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Change or just nostalgia?

Hello there!!

So, recently, I feel like I’m not really myself.

A lot of little things… This post will be messy, I can tell you that, so be prepared.

For example, when I love something new, I love it too much, like, I get overexcited. And I’m scared it won’t last, or that I’ll mess it up.

On the other side, I feel like not loving the things I use to love as much and not finding myself where I use to.  

But on the other other side (told you it would get messy!), I’m listening to a lot of “old” music, the kind of I should have been (and was) listening a few years ago… Same with movies and TV series. 

So… What the hell is happening? Why? 

Several possibilities I’ve think of: 

  1. I feel lost, so I prefer to get back to my old self, listening to old music, to try to find my old self again.
  2. This feeling of nostalgia is just due to the weather ; it feels like Autumn in here, even it’s still Summer, and Autumn is the season of nostalgia. But in a good way. I love this feeling. It may be it.
  3. This just always have been me and it’s just life happening. I need to get over it. And over myself. I’m being too dramatic. 
  4. I don’t know. I’m open to a few ideas… Do you have any?

– Papergirl

Hello there!! So, recently, I feel like I'm not really myself. A lot of little things... This post will be messy, I can tell you that, so be prepared. For example, when I love something new, I love it too much, like, I get overexcited. And I'm scared it won't last, or that I'll mess… Continue reading Change or just nostalgia?

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Missing my friends so badly and wanting to be alone in the same time : contradiction 1.01.

This is so weird.

It’s been a while since I hadn’t spend some time with my best friends or my sister. I miss them so so much! It’s like I’m not full when they’re not here with me. I’d like to have them with me all the time! 

So, logically, I feel alone and lonely. And that’s usually the moment when I think that no one understand me or really know me. And I feel even worth. So I think the best solution is to keep being alone. So that I won’t feel this bad again. But in the same time I will, since I’ll be alone. And I get mad at them for little tiny things, like when I see they live a great moment, “the best of their life”, and I wasn’t even there, and I’m mad at them. I mad that they’re enjoying life without me when I’m here, missing them. But it’s not their fault, I couldn’t be there. I’m not blaming them. I’m blaming me. Or I don’t know. I’m blaming the universe haha

How is it possible to miss someone and be mad for not being here at them in the same time? To want to live with them 24/7 and in the same time to want to have your own little life alone by yourself? Am I weird or do you know I’m talking about?

I think I’m weird.

– PaperGirl

This is so weird. It's been a while since I hadn't spend some time with my best friends or my sister. I miss them so so much! It's like I'm not full when they're not here with me. I'd like to have them with me all the time!  So, logically, I feel alone and lonely.… Continue reading Missing my friends so badly and wanting to be alone in the same time : contradiction 1.01.

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Pull me off that pedestal, and listen to me.

Hey guys! It’s been a while right? 

Seemed like I didn’t need you anymore, cause I found a job and a boyfriend and my life seems complete right now. It kind of is, it’s like butterflies and rainbows everyday, but  there’s reality too. And I need advice. 

Why are people always putting me in the first place? Like if I say no, they think I would like to say yes and they change everything to make it happen. But guys, I said no. That is not a sacrifice, it’s just me saying no. Don’t don’t sacrifice yourself in return, cause I didn’t do it in the first place. And I feel bad about it. We all deserve the first place. Stop thinking I deserve the best at your expense. This is not me, and I prefer being me than becoming the idea of me you have on your own. 

I don’t want to be that girl. I don’t want to be that daughter, that friend, that girlfriend. I’m not worth that much effort. I’m not to protect without listening to me, I’m not a porcelain doll. I have my own voice and I prefer you listen to it instead of supposing what I would like. 

“I want you to be happy”, “I wanna do that for you”… Then listen to me. Listen to what I say would make me happy, and what I want you to do for me. I know me better than anyone. This is not a selfish statement. It’s just the truth. And it’s the same for you. So listen to yourself too. 

– PaperGirl

Hey guys! It's been a while right?  Seemed like I didn't need you anymore, cause I found a job and a boyfriend and my life seems complete right now. It kind of is, it's like butterflies and rainbows everyday, but  there's reality too. And I need advice.  Why are people always putting me in the… Continue reading Pull me off that pedestal, and listen to me.