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Becoming more positive

Hey there! I don’t have a lot to say, but these days I see a lot of quotes about life and goals and positivity. I just wanted to talk a little about that. 

For a long time, I thought I was a negative person, who would always see the glass half empty, but I’ve realized recently that I’m not. I’m a person who sees the glass half full. And, trust me, it’s wayyyy better! Yesterday, a friend of mine was listening to some of my favorite songs ever, and he told me that they were all using “happy tuning” that usually convey feelings like hope. THIS IS SO ME!!! At least this is who I wanna be. Like : even when the lyrics are sad, it’s like the tuning turns it upside down, and just make me (you?) think positivity, hope, smile, happy feelings.

I want to be a happy person, or at least someone who make other people happy. I’m happy and satisfied with other people’s happiness. It’s simple like this. 

I want to be a good person, and I try to be, every time I think of it. We all make choices everyday, some more little than others, and these choices define us. It could be so simple to be a good person, by simply making the right choices. Can you imagine a world where everyone would do that? No more hate, racism, wars…

Focus, aim, and just do it. It’s not impossible to be who you want to be. It’s harder to  be someone others want, or to change for others, but for yourself? Come on! Be happy with yourself! I’m not asking anyone to change and reinvent their whole self, just, think of some little changes you would like to see in your life, that would make you happier. Think of how YOU can make them happen, and just make them happen! I promise you, little things make happiness! Share it, and here is your secret ingredient for full happiness! 

– PaperGirl

Hey there! I don't have a lot to say, but these days I see a lot of quotes about life and goals and positivity. I just wanted to talk a little about that.  For a long time, I thought I was a negative person, who would always see the glass half empty, but I've realized recently… Continue reading Becoming more positive

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I got a job!

Hey everyone! 

So, here’s a little part of my story ; I finished my cinema studies in 2015. I did an internship at Universal Pictures (in Paris) during my studies (in 2014), and I loved it. It was my dream job! After my studies, I found a job for 6 month at the main radio here in Paris (in 2015-16), and I loved it too, even if it wasn’t really my kind of music. It was almost the same tasks that I had at Universal Pictures, so it was almost perfect. And it was still entertainment. I was working in marketing and communication. It was my thing.

So after that, I looked for a job in this area, but I didn’t find anything. 

After a while (almost one year), I faced the fact that I didn’t have the right formation to do what I wanted. So I thought about my life, a LOT, about what else I liked, what I preferred in life and in myself, about what I could use in/for a job. 

My second dream was to work in publishing, but since I hadn’t ANY qualifications, nor any professional contacts, it was obvious I would never get a job in this area. I’m not a warrior. I can’t find my way through this difficult world, talking myself through things like that. Some people can, I can’t. I’m too shy and too honest for that. It’s ridiculous. 

My last idea was to work in a hotel, being a receptionist. Again, I had no formation, but I already had some experience dealing with welcoming clients, and I liked it. I love helping people, making them happy just by being here for them and answer their request. Sounded perfect. And, to be honest, I got inspired by the movie ‘Love, Rosie’. I thought : why not? So I prospected a little, sending some CVs all over Paris, not even hoping a positive answer because, let’s be honest, who would want me when they could have anyone else, with more experience? 

But you know what? The day after I sent those CVs, I got 2 interviews. And 3 others the day after that. 2 of them wanted me. They wanted me for me, for my personality, and not just my formation (since I have none). So I choose my favorite one, and today was my first day, and it went well =) The whole team is really nice, and I think I’ll like the job! Really. It suits me, in a way. 

So, why am I telling you all about my life, you’d think? Just to tell you that, yes, it’s really hard nowadays to find a job. And maybe you won’t find something that you like. But you are human. You can find something new, redefine yourself, change your mind, try something new. Never give up. “The only limit is the one you set yourself“. Okay, maybe you also need to be realistic, and okay, I will stop with the cliché sentences. But you really do have more options than you think! Just be sure your choices make you happy. The most important thing is to make yourself happy. There isn’t little or poor jobs. Yes, I’m payed with the more little salary possible, but at least I’m payed for something I like!

And when I think about it, I’m not sure I would have love working in communication. This is so much more human. And I love humans. I love feelings. I love life. 

– PaperGirl

Hey everyone!  So, here's a little part of my story ; I finished my cinema studies in 2015. I did an internship at Universal Pictures (in Paris) during my studies (in 2014), and I loved it. It was my dream job! After my studies, I found a job for 6 month at the main radio here… Continue reading I got a job!

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Friendships and being yourself

Is this really friendship if you’re not completely yourself?

This is so weird how friendships can change. No, not change really. Evolve. 

When I was young, I had a best friend who knew me so well and with whom I could do and say anything and just be myself. Basically, the very definition of a best friend.

Now, this friend still is dear to me, but time drove us away, and even if I still spend time with her and love her, it’s not the same. She doesn’t get me the way she did. And I guess I don’t really get her either. I can’t be fully myself around her, and even worse, I don’t dare to be, because I’m afraid of being judged by her. 

I tried to keep it the way it was, but I couldn’t. For a time I wasn’t okay with that, and I felt bad about it. Like it was my fault. But it wasn’t. It’s just the way it is sometimes. So, then, I accepted it. And now I feel better, even if it’s still hard because I feel like I’m keeping a part of me to myself when I’m with her. And I feel like I’m not being honest with her. But she doesn’t get some part of me and I prefer being occasionally less me with her, than being full me without her. 

It’s hard to realize that, and it hurts. Almost physically. But that’s life, right? We grow apart and make new friends and new adventures and life continues. 

I also have other friends, two of them being the bests, and I have my sister. They are my true best friends, for a long time now, and I love them so so much. They are part of me. They know me so well, sometimes better than myself, and they forgive my craziness and they love me back just for who I am. This is awesome and I can’t thank them enough for this. 

Sometimes it’s okay to let go, if this is for the right reasons. You have to prioritise your choices and accept change. But the most important: never lose sight of what YOU are and what YOU want. You are the main character of your life. Be yourself and people will love you for you. 

-PaperGirl

Is this really friendship if you're not completely yourself? This is so weird how friendships can change. No, not change really. Evolve.  When I was young, I had a best friend who knew me so well and with whom I could do and say anything and just be myself. Basically, the very definition of a… Continue reading Friendships and being yourself

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Where have you been Hope?

Sometimes Hope just crawl (back?) into your life unexpectedly.

It can be a simple quote that makes you realize that you can do whatever the hell you want, that some things are built on hope, that life is worth living fully.

It can be a friend reaching out for help or advice, and the simple fact to be here for this person is enough for her/him to get better. 

It can be someone you wouldn’t have expected coming to talk to you one day, and soon you find yourself waiting for it every day with a stupid smile on your face. 

It can be a simple ray of sunshine piercing through darkness to get your attention. 

It can be the perspective of a few days away from the city, just to enjoy being alive, a good book in your hand, great friends by your side, the beginning of spring calling you to move on. 

Let’s hope together…

– PaperGirl

Sometimes Hope just crawl (back?) into your life unexpectedly. It can be a simple quote that makes you realize that you can do whatever the hell you want, that some things are built on hope, that life is worth living fully. It can be a friend reaching out for help or advice, and the simple… Continue reading Where have you been Hope?

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Anxiety and Life and Thoughts and akfgzertyuiopmlkjhgfdcvbn!!!!!!!!

For a few weeks now, I have anxiety.

I’ve always been a nervous girl, I have eczema very often and I am anxious all the time. But now, this is new : I have a hard time sleeping, because when I want to sleep I find myself thinking of wayyyyy to many things, about life, and jobs, and goals, and love, and everything and nothing. I stress out and I can’t sleep.

My first solution was to go to sleep so late that I would be too exhausted and sleep right away. It worked, for a little while. But soon I was too tired everyday. Since I don’t have a job, it’s not important, you’d tell me. But it is. It is important because if I’m in this state of mind, this is for a reason. I’m not well in my mind, but then in my body too. 

How to come to the end of it? I don’t have a proper answer yet.

But for me, the breakthrough was an appointment for a training for a new job, where the woman made me understand that I had no expertise at all. She asked me several times : “but what are your other skills?”. “I’ve just told you everything, like, my whole life. I don’t have anything more.” “Oh, I see, so, no skills then…”. Nicely put! Okay, she didn’t said it exactly like that, but it wasn’t really far from it either. It kind of broke me for a moment, but after a little while, I realized I already knew that. I had no skill in this area, but I didn’t have to stick to this particular sector. So, since she wouldn’t let me have a chance here, I decided to do something totally different. 

I think this is what set me free, because since that day I sleep better and I’m a little less worried about everything. I still haven’t done anything in the new way I’ve chosen, like finding a training or a job, but I feel more comfortable with it. Maybe it won’t work, we’ll know soon enough. But for now, I’m way better and this is the most important. 

A few days ago, I saw this quote from Lana Parrilla (a normal woman, not an expert who know everything about it but just a regular human being who just live, like me, like you): “You are where you need to be. Just take a deep breath.”. And this is it. This is the whole point of my post. Maybe sometimes we just have to make a decision and change everything just to be in a better place. Maybe if you’re going through this there’s a reason, not like God or anything, but just for you to become stronger, and to be better. I’m talking for myself of course, I know some people have bigger issues and problems. I don’t know everything, far from it. I’m just talking for me, for my own experience. 

I like to take quotes from normal people and not experts, because I feel closer to them. Another quote I like these days : “Two important lessons about life : 1. Life is chaos. 3. Plans are void. C. Become one with chaos. *. Stop taking yourself so seriously!” – Sachin Sahel. It sums up what I feel about life most of the time. Maybe it’s just time to embrace it and see what happens. It could be good. 

Another quote I’ve seen recently (I promise this is the last one): “Life’s short. Make the first move.”. This is just something I want to keep in mind. If you’re not well, it may be because some things need to change in your life. Make the first move to change it, even if it feel scary and stressful. 

I’m not sure of what I’m saying right now, it’s just a feeling I have for a few days. I hope it’ll work out well.

So. Anyway. Count to three. Breath. And don’t forget to live. Because yes, you are alive! Embrace it. Enjoy being alive! 

I should be the first to try and follow my own advice. Ha!

– PaperGirl

Don’t hesitate to comment, I’d be glad to talk with you and hear what you have to say on the subject =)

For a few weeks now, I have anxiety. I've always been a nervous girl, I have eczema very often and I am anxious all the time. But now, this is new : I have a hard time sleeping, because when I want to sleep I find myself thinking of wayyyyy to many things, about life,… Continue reading Anxiety and Life and Thoughts and akfgzertyuiopmlkjhgfdcvbn!!!!!!!!

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First Tattoo

It’s been a while since I wanted a tattoo, but I didn’t know what, where, when and with who. A friend of mine got one and I love it so much. It’s part of her, something she wants to show everyone everyday. She has something to say with it, even if it’s just to herself because there’s not a lot of people who actually know the true meaning of her tattoo. And I love her meaning. 

After a while, I decided what and where I wanted mine, and this good friend of mine made me discover the perfect guy for it. We made an appointment last January for the beginning of April. That’s right now!

Two days ago, I got my first tattoo!!!! 
I made it in Paris (where I live), at L’Encrerie, and the tattoo artist is MaxLesquatt

Screenshot_2017-04-08-00-45-53 - CopieThe meaning is quite simple but important : it’s a compass so of course it’s to show me direction. It’s kind of a way to never forget what and who I want to be, where I want to go with myself. A way not to forget to make the good choices everyday, like little choices that seems insignificant but define who I am. Sounds silly but I’m often an angry person, or sometimes I don’t consider someone else’s point on view in the right angle, and I don’t want to be that person. It’s so hard to make a change in yourself and to choose to act in a certain way ; this is my reminder of being a better a person.

And it also make me think of nature, cause, well, we use a compass to guide ourselves when lost in a wood right? So it’s like my personal guide.

And the arrow across it it to highlight the direction I want to take, like I’m not lost with my compass, I know what direction to take. I just have to take it. And also because I’ve always loved arrows. and it was to add something and customize it, not having just a compass like 1000 other people.

It didn’t hurt, like at all! I think it’s because the design is so thin, and maybe this is a body part that is not so sensible. It was like someone was drawing on my arm with sharp pencil, over and over and it was a little desensitized and unsettling, but that’s all. I’m so happy! I thought I would cry and be so ridiculous haha 

I don’t encourage anyone to get a tattoo unless you’re very sure of it. It’s still something that will stay all your life (even if I know nowadays you can have it erased). So be semiconscious and smart and sure before you do anything. Also, make sure you find a great tattoo parlor and a great tattoo artist cause you’re playing with your health too. But if you’re sure and you find the right person for it then go for it, cause it’s so great! I’m not a pride person, I’m not confident with myself, but I’m pride of it and of wearing it. 

Anyway, that’s my little daily story.

I hope you’re having a great day.

I know I am.

– PaperGirl 

It's been a while since I wanted a tattoo, but I didn't know what, where, when and with who. A friend of mine got one and I love it so much. It's part of her, something she wants to show everyone everyday. She has something to say with it, even if it's just to herself… Continue reading First Tattoo

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Be the change you want to see in the world

I got this quote from Prison Break, but it was Gandhi who said that. I don’t remember exactly why Michael Scofield chose this quote, but I like it and I think it suits him and his way of seeing and living life. 

Nowadays more than ever, this quote speaks to me.

First, PRISON BREAK IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!! This was one of favorite TV series ever, and even if I don’t agree with all the reboots and sequels years after the end of something (please be inventive and create something new!!), I’m so happy about it! I watched the first episode and the 42 minutes felt like 15! I’m so into it at 100%! Can’t wait to see what is waiting for us next! Anyway, that was not the subject here. 

This quote. Be the change you want to see in the world.

I’m at a part of my life where I have to make choices, important choices, that will impact on my future forever. Since I don’t find any job in the course I studied in college, I have to reconvert and transform myself. In a way, this is awesome cause I can be a lot of things and I got to choose who I can become again. Like a new start. But it’s also very hard because it feels like my one and only chance, and I have to choose right. 

So, this quote speaks to me because I get to choose and be the change I want to see in my life. In my little personal world. I’m speaking low scale here. So I need to consider who I am, and I want to be, and who I can be, mix this, and Voilà! Easy right? If only…

In a large scale, this quote is important and it should be everybody’s motto. It’s so simple and true. If you are and act like you wish everyone else would do, it’s already an improvement for the world. If everyone did this, then our world would not be so dark and violent and sad. By changing what you want to change in you own scale, you can change it in a larger scale. If you can’t be a change all by yourself, you can be part of it somehow. 

I always think : never do to anyone else what you wouldn’t like anyone else to do to you

I don’t do any charity project, or help anyone in a particular way, I’m not that exemplary person. I wish I would be, but like the majority of us, I’m self-centered, even if that doesn’t mean I’m selfish. I like to think I’m a good person and that I try to be the person I would like to be, not hurting people around me, changing and creating my life little by little. It’s not that easy. And I like to think that when I’ll be more settled, I’ll be able to make a change in a larger scale, and be the change I want to see in the world. Hope doesn’t hurt, right?

– PaperGirl

 

I got this quote from Prison Break, but it was Gandhi who said that. I don't remember exactly why Michael Scofield chose this quote, but I like it and I think it suits him and his way of seeing and living life.  Nowadays more than ever, this quote speaks to me. First, PRISON BREAK IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!… Continue reading Be the change you want to see in the world